Woah. So, since my last post, I have:
*Interviewed for two jobs in the same day
*Received an informal offer for one of the jobs (I accepted)
*Packed for a family of three to travel out of town for the weekend
*Completed a whirlwind tour of the Chicagoland area with said family
*Responded sanely to my negative, looking-to-pick-a-fight father
*Researched and visited private kindergartens in anticipation for the aforementioned new job
*Stayed off of the scale
*Quit running
*Eaten sanely.
The last thing is the big one for me. In that list, I see at least six different sources of mega-stress (dealing with my dad is probably one of the biggest ones, since my inner critic took lessons from him). And still, I didn't eat over any of that. What helped?
1. The CBT Referee app, self-affirmation, and other methods of combatting the inner critic
2. Remembering that I can always eat again when I get hungry
3. Keeping my most important goals (self-acceptance, good mental health) in mind
I guess I'm in a list-making mood tonight. I can say that I'm feeling extremely disorganized and frazzled, what with the upcoming school year and all. It's amazing, though, how much BETTER I am handling all of this than I was before I quit dieting and weighing. There is definitely less internal chatter. Still, I am very tired, and will come back again when I'm feeling more rested!
I like #2. I read that thinking...wow, how simple is that? It really IS that simple. *slaps forehead* Wish you could have pointed this out years ago!
ReplyDeleteSo proud with how you are handling the multiple stresses that have surfaced. You are on the right path. *hugs*