Okay, now this is just getting ridiculous.

2 days to go. I don't know WHY the blogathon folks keep saying "It's over! It's over!"

Unless....

Shit. Was this a month of May thing, or a 30-day thing? I can't remember!

At least I have gotten into the habit of posting every day. I don't think that's the best course of action for what I want to do with my blog, though. I have other places to put random mind dribblings. This is supposed to be the "really struggling" or "holy shit! epiphany!" place.

I have to go back and check out the details on the blogathon now. In the meantime, I will say that I'm still having weird issues with wanting to eat the world. Could be anxiety about the upcoming test, could be PMS, could be anxiety about seeing old friends in a month, could be the new job, or whatever.

I would like to get into the habit of really searching for meaning in the words I choose. So, "wanting to eat the world" might mean something different from "wanting to eat everything in sight" or "wanting to nibble without stopping". What does it mean to want to "eat the world"? What do I REALLY want? Am I feeling like my world is sort of hollow, and needing to be filled? Could I be having a "what does it all mean?" crisis? That's entirely possible.

Or, it could be PMS. I just realized that I haven't taken a bath in weeks, and that needs to happen soon.